so today I went over to Chuy’s house and spent some time with his family. his mom made pozole and even though I had just eaten breakfast in the morning, I still said yes to having a bowl because it’s kind of insulting to deny someone’s food when you come to their house, right? it was delicious and she even gave me some to take home. too bad my family are most of it. so we went to his brother’s soccer game around 1 and when we came back, Chuy had some more pozole. I was still pretty full from all the food I was eating at the game, so I just sat at the table and read my manga. his parents were leaving, they said bye and his dad doesn’t speak much English, but he wanted to tell me something. I could only understand about 2 words in the sentence and it was “gracias” and “novia”. he was thanking me for being Chuy’s girlfriend and then he asked for a beautiful grandson and I thought it was the sweetest thing anyone’s parent has ever told me. besides when Austin’s grandparents tell me that they miss me haha 😊
I just don’t give a fuck about anything anymore. I don’t even consider people’s feelings because I’m so annoyed all the time.
I know people say certain things when they feel hurt, but I want you to know this:
you’re hoping that I remember all the times when I felt lonely and you were there to keep me company; just as I will say the same to you. I also want to remind you how I’ve been there for you while you’ve let your pride get in the way of resolving conflicts — especially with your family. and don’t forget how I was the person you’d come to when you didn’t want to depend on your family for their assistance or their support.
one more thing, I don’t need another person to make me feel complete. I’m my own person and I create my own happiness.